Mistakes are painful but they are the only way to find out who you really are

so, to help with my hailstorm of self loathing and misery i made the treck to Florida on June 30. it wasnt too bad. i got away from all the drama i have here and just had a good ole time. while on vacation i read a something that went like this

"some go to the beach for solace and for answers to internal questions. you are overwhelmed and need to ground my barefeet in the wet sand. the beach remains tranquil no matter what is going on and its a welcoming constant companion."

i could not agree more. the ocean waves, sunny skies and men without shirts on were the things i need. coming back into reality, the calmness of the beach made me realize i just may need it in my everyday life. a calmer more laid back lifestyle. sometimes what we want is exactly what we need.

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Ever since the beach i have felt very relaxed, i have confronted my boss and discussed my issues about my job and i am coming to terms with this DUI situation. mistakes are painful but they are the only way to find out who we really are. and i think since May 19 (the accident) i am finding out who i am and who i want to become.

I am a 100% who went to Penn State for four years but lovesssssssss the PITT PANTHERS football and basketball. i live, drink, and breath them about eight months out of the year. the panthers are a huge portion of what binds me to this city. People dont get me, definitely when i tell them I'm a Penn State graduate, Pitt fan :) I work hard in the food and beverage industry and determined to succeed within the industry one day soon. most people agree that i am a hidden blonde. but as they say people with the book smarts dont have the street smarts. talking about streets, i am not a very good driver!! lol got my license later in life {23) and have been almost self destructed my car and myself. lol thankfully i have never hurt anyone else and only have broken the smallest bone in my face afterthis last accident. i graduated from Le Cordon Bleu Culinary Institute with an Associates in Specialized business with a concentration in Hospitality and Restaurant Management. and lets get one thing straight. i hate to cook. lol that is right. i need to start liking it i think, i have almost 30000 dollars owed to Sallie Mae, i owe it to myself to like it a little. i date men that are emotionally unavailable, for one reason or another, but thats another blog i suppose in and of itself.

so not that you have an overview of me, back to the story. i had another follow up appointment for the swelling in my face. i went to another office and another doctor in Oakland. i had a good vibe from this office. one i didnt have to pay to park. two the office