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Dec 15, 2011

I make my trip to the ghettoness of McKeesport to get an assessment from a therapist about my drinking habits!

100 bucks.

Very nice lady.  it was about 5 pages of drinking questions.
for example

Have you used drugs??
whats your drinking habits like now after the accident??
when was the first time you had a sip of alcohol?
what was your drinking habits before the accident?
How many beers can you have in one sitting?
have you ever played drinking games?
what kind of alcohol do you drink?
have you ever had a hangover?
have you ever went on a binge?
what are the drinking habits of your family?
how many times a month do you drink?
Have you noticed your tolerance go down??

...... wonder if she knew i was lying??

She qualified me as a social drinker! phew! lol

Next step...
Highway safetly class....
Bring it.

The good without the bad aint no good at all

Friday december 9, 2011

I had my CRN evaluation for my DUI; some sort of an alcohol evaluation.  I had to drive all the way to North Hills; 45 minutes away.  The lady asked me about ten questions if that.  She asked me what my mom thought about the DUI??? Who I lived with? What happened during the car accident? What was my blood alcohol?  How much do i drink???
The conversation took about fifteen minutes.  Waste of time if you ask me. I lied and said I dont know for most of the questions and drink way less than I do.  and apparently she had all the information about the car accident and blood alcohol in her little computer.  Then why ask me and why waste my time?

afterwards she tells me I have to go to an alcohol assessment. Are you kidding me? Isnt that what this is?

On my way to the CRN evaluation I get a phone call from UPMC trauma at Presby (the hospital I went to after the car accident).  Apparently my scans from that day show that I have a hetia hernia and Thyroid nodules.  IT IS DECEMBER!!!! Why am I just finding out now?? The lady told me that they have tried to contact me via mail.  The first time was in May and the letter was sent to the address that was in the computer when I came into the hospital.  I told the lady i was nearly unconscious when I came into the hospital and the address I live at now is the address I have had for my WHOLE LIFE. 

So when that letter came back from the crazy address, it took them until October to send it to this address.  WHAT TOOK SO LONG?? I got the little card in the mail saying i needed to go to the UPS and pick up a certified letter but during those months I was in contact with medical assistance at UPMC and got approved for it, so i assumed that's what it had to do with.  I WAS WRONG AGAIN!!! lol  How was I suppose to know??? What took so long for you to call?  My first thought was neglict.  But this past Wednesday, I went to the doctors and he said the hetial hernia is nothing to worry about; a lot of people have them and they don't even know it.  If i hadn't had adnormal problems with acid refux and heart burn, I will be ok and we will just keep a watch on it. 

The thyroid on the otherhand I have to get blood work and see if the thyroid is producing too much or not enough hormones.  FYI i hate blood tests or any type of MEDICAL needles to be stuck into me.  I do not mind going to the tattoo parlor and getting things pierced but hospitals and doctors scare the crap out of me. 

After the blood test I have to go to a thyroid doctor.  I do not have insurance and I make under a certain amount at my job so I can go to the Catholic Charity free healthcare clinic downtown. THANK GOD!!

A true personal victory isn't dependent on anything but our own responses :)

I am on this journey to learn where I fit in this world and to define myself and to love myself.

Nov 27, 2010- back down to the courthouse for my arraignment. i went to the first room, and then had to go to another room, and then go to another room to talk to a public defender. i told the first lady, susan, that i was declined for a public defender months ago. she said, "here on your paperwork it says you have one, so you do." i declined my right to a trial, because thats pointless and in a year everything will be cleared up.

so i am going through all the paperwork with the public defender and actually understanding everything and then i realized my social security number was wrong and then i realized my license says it's expired and it isnt. then i look at the top of the page and then another page and another and i am filling out paperwork for a girl named DANA!!! who is dana??? sooooo back downstairs to Susan.

Did i mention the cute guy that was filling out paperwork during the sametime?? he was really cute.

anyways i go back to Susan. She apologizes for the mix up and she transfer the info onto new papers and tells me i have to go back upstairs.

back upstairs i am told i have to come back to the courthouse on JAN 27. one more hearing and i have to bring 250 dollars. i looked at cute guy's paperwork on the elevator and hes going to be there as well Jan 27th AT SEVEN AM!!! YIKES!!! why so early???

recap

-jan 27- 7am

-one alcohol test and depending on my score will determine how many hours of driving classes ill need to take. She said they usually do the driving classes over a weekend and could be up to twelve hours! WOW!

-I'll lose my license for 60 days about a month after my hearing on Jan 27th

-on probation for a year.

-in total about 1600 bucks!!!

let the games begin